Let’s be real, I’m going to say what’s on my mind. For those who know me, should already know that I don’t mean no disrespect, I just feel like it needs to be said. And if ain’t nobody else got the guts to say it, I will. Real talk. I know I have my flaws and I am not perfect. I lack the ability to empathize with people. I’m sorry, I’m not sorry that you feel the way you do. People say, oh the military has made you so cold-hearted and mean. No, the military just opened my eyes to see that everybody is out for #1 and they don’t give a damn about your opinions or your feelings. The main objective is to get the job done in a timely manner with the results being high above standards. Its their way or no way, no highway option (movie quote, can u guess what movie?).
I am the way I am because through it all I stay true to myself and others. I lack the patience for drama. Its nonsense and unnecessary. Ok yea, I get that you’re depressed or in a bad situation. Never is that a reason to want to slit your wrists, throat or hurt yourself in anyway. Because truth of the matter is, it does not solve a damn thing. I think ppl who make suicidal gestures or commit suicide are selfish assholes. IDC if you’re depressed your gf left you. Honestly, thats no reason to be depressed at all. And I am aware that I a blog posted on depression and that I was depressed on certain matters in my life.  Truthfully, I don’t truly believe I was depressed, people was just telling me that I was so I did some research.
I’ll be the first to admit that losing someone that you love could put you in a very dark place. I’m in that dark place right now, but I’m so not willing to kill myself over it. I want to live my life until its really my time to die and hell even then I don’t want to die.  People say, oh you’re so cold, you’re so mean – no, I’m just honest and I’ll say all the shit that you won’t say. I can be that loving, caring, affectionate and giving person – I really can again , I’m just not at that point in my life right now. My priorities are in order and my goals, my standards are to succeed far beyond my wildest dreams (and I got some wild and kinky ones too lol).
I’m not the person whose going to ask you what’s wrong over and over again. If you don’t care enough to open up and tell about your problems, I’m not going to care enough to listen and try to help or offer solution. Real talk.  Help me, help you, help me, help you. Ya feel me?  And please believe that if I haven’t opened up to you to tell you what’s bothering me, it’s not for you to know. My business, the 411 on my life is on a need to know basis. If I feel you need to know, then without a doubt you’ll get the memo. But don’t stress it, if you feel like theres something wrong with me and you want to know or want to help, don’t trouble yourself in asking if I haven’t came to you first. I’m good, I can handle my own shit.  I don’t like drama and I don’t like everybody and their sister’s cousin knowing my business. So remember that before you go running to tell something I told you to someone else. If I tell you something, its only because I trust you won’t tell anybody else. And that’s real talk.